my life thus far

Alright, it has been a while since I last blogged. Went to Tioman and China after my exams, and as some of you folks should know, I haven't had the chance to go online cos my network card is damaged. So that explains the stagnation.

Anyway, post exam life has been good. Had a relaxing trip to Tioman. Besides snorkeling, most of the time was spent sleeping, stoning, and just gazing at the sea. Oh, and I perfected the craft of spinning pebbles on the sea surface. You know... the trick whereby the pebble will 'bounce' off the surface a few times before sinking into the water. My record was five... heh heh.

After that I went to China as part of a combine delegation of 50 NUS, NTU and SMU students. This was the second leg of a sino-singapore exchange. The PRC students came to Singapore in February during the first leg, and in return for taking precious time out to host them, we were fully sponsored by MOE to go to Kunming, Beijing and Changchun in the second leg. It was a pretty good trip; got to scale the Great Wall and visit the Forbidden City, as well as soaking in the culture (and dust) of chinese life.

Nonetheless, I guess my mind was really somewhere else throughout the trip, cos there are quite a lot of unsettled stuff back in Singapore. Perhaps the most agonizing moment was when I had to go and check some important (okie... not exactly that important, but important enough to me) emails in an internet cafe during the last night in Kunming. It took a grand total of 10 minutes for the 56 kbps dial up to open my inbox. I think those 10 minutes were probably more excruciating than checking the NUS exam results. Oh well, the reply was kinda deflating, and I would be lying to say that I'm not disappointed. But I suppose I'm okay. I'm contented with just dropping by. Really. Shouldn't ask for too much when God already answered my incredible crazy prayer request to fly over to Holland, at the expense of withdrawing myself from the MFA internship (long and complicated story here, but I did want to get out of MFA so that I can do missions in Thailand too). Honestly, sometimes I wonder if I'm bothering on craziness rather than passion in the decisions that I make. Oh well, I have the whole July to figure out if I'm crazy, passionate or normal in Holland.

So anyway, I'm back in sunny singapore, and learnt that there were many earth shattering news happening around the region in Java and East Timor. I don't know... sometimes news hit you in a way that causes you to re-evaluate what you have been studying in school. I haven't sort out what I want to do with my life after I graduate, though I really want to do something that can contribute back to society in a tangible manner. I don't suppose it is missions at this point in my life, but I hope wadever my career is going to be, it will help the folks in this region??

Ideals, ideals and ideals; that is what drives people forward. I have one more year to sort out my ideals. I hope I am not running out of time.