What soren kierkegaard did that make him possibly impossible

How much I ... is shown by the fact that I always tried to hide from myself how much ... moved me... If I had not been a penitent, had not had, had not been melancholy, my ... would have made me happier than I ever dreamed of being. But insofar as I was what, alas, I was, I had to say that I could be happier in my unhappiness without ... than with ...

... that is how I understood it.

And so we ...

"Journal", Kierkegaard

How can I understand it?