Sedated jim

Chelsea lent me this cd by Kings of Convenience. I quite like the songs, I think it just kinda describes my mood these days, sedated, somewhat dreamy, and slightly lazy to study. I think it is partly due to the fact that it is hard for the cap score to go up or to go down when you are at year 4. I guess there is a remote possibility that I won't be able to write a thesis if I do crash the last hurdle, which is kinda like a characteristic of my life in general. But I guess I'm somewhat stuck in between indifference and innocence - easy come, easy go, no big deal. Like a passenger in a train, going through the motions, drifting from station to station. Just looking forward for the year to end, although I don't really have anything to look forward to in the new year. But honestly, I prefer it that way these days.

I lose some sales
and my boss won't be happy
but I can't stop listening to the sound
of two soft voices blended in perfection
from the reels of this record that I found

every day there's a boy in the mirror
asking me
what are you doing here
finding all my previous motives
growing increasingly unclear

I travelled far and I burned all the bridges
I belived as soon as I hit land
all the other
options held before me
will wither in the light of my plan

so I lose some sales
and my boss won't be happy
but there's only one thing on my mind
searching boxes underneath the counter
on a chance that on a tape I'd find

a song for
someone who needs somewhere
to long for

homesick
cause I no longer know
where home is

"Homesick' by Kings of Convenience